Kate McCann's Diary

This was the article published by the now defunct New of the World (or News of the Screws as it was more affectionately known), the cause of so much controversy resulting in a hefty payout by way of public apology to Ms McCann for revealing her inner most thoughts following the 'abduction' of her beloved daughter madeleine.  

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By Daniel Sanderson, 13/09/2008

For the first time, the heartbreaking truth that destroys the lies of the Portuguese police



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TODAY we reveal the secret diary of agonised mum Kate McCann' penned over months as she and husband Gerry struggled to deal with their daughter Madeleine's abduction.

]Her words destroy the litany of lies told by Portuguese cops to paint them as cold and calculating. Kate wrote: 'I can't bear being without Madeleine. It's like torture' a slow painful death.

FOR months the Portuguese police leaked carefully selected extracts from [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] secret diary, chosen to deliberately paint her and husband Gerry as the ice couple' cold, dispassionate and emotionless in the face of three-year-old Madeleine's abduction.
Now, for the first time, the News of the World can fill in the blanks and nail those lies. The 135-page journal covering April 28, 2007 to Tuesday, July 31, was passed to us by a reporter in Portugal appalled by the sickening smear campaign against the McCann's.
Kate's log of the dark days after Madeleine vanished from their holiday flat reveals the true picture of the tortured woman behind the calm, brave face she had to portray in public, as initial disbelief and numbness gave way to desperation and rage. Often she includes touching messages of love to her missing daughter. It confirms the strength Kate drew from her devout [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]' and frankly admits the doubts the trauma forced her to face.
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Mum-of-three Kate, 40, records that it began much like any other since the family arrived at the Mark Warner Ocean Club in Praia da Luz on Portugal's Algarve coast' one long, happy round of swimming, tennis, kids' club, games and fun.
But knowing what is about to befall them turns Kate's simple account of the children's evening bedtime routine into a tense drama...
 
THURSDAY, MAY 3: Milk and biscuits for the kids. I left them with this and books and games and went to have a quick shower/wash my hair. M (Madeleine) tired' sitting on my lap' I read the story of Mog (favourite children's book).
Brush teeth. To the bedroom with the kids. M pulls away and puts her head on pillow. Kisses goodnight for M. Pulled the door to as far as possible without shutting it. Silence.
Dry hair. Put make-up on. Glass of wine. Restaurant.
(During dinner nearby with friends 'dubbed the [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] 'the group took turns to check the children. At 10pm Kate discovers Madeleine gone. The McCann's and helpers frantically scour the area until 4am.)
 
FRIDAY, MAY 4: No sleep, Gerry and I started looking through the streets around 06.00 as it was starting to get light. Nobody around. Why not' Desperate.
Minutes seem like hours. Outside of the apartments masses of people asking questions about that night and for descriptions of Madeleine. Long day.
(Then Kate, Gerry and their seven friends were taken to the [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.], or PJ, headquarters in nearby Portimao to give statements.)
Nobody from the police introduced themselves. Nobody offered us a drink or food. All the police dressed informally and smoking. No sympathy was shown and far from inspiring.
I believe my statement would have been around 15.00 and such. They allowed G (Gerry) to come in with me but seated behind me. Translator present.
The police officer who took us by car to the station was the one asking the questions and afterwards typed the answers on a typewriter. Morose.
We left the police station around 7.30pm to 8pm. After 15 minutes we received a call from the PJ saying we had to go back but they didn't tell us why. We turned around and flew back at around 200 kilometres an hour. Once again frightening. Did they find her' Please God. Is she dead' Prayers. We arrived' they showed us a photo of a girl they'd forgotten to show us from the close circuit TV footage. Not M. Devastating.
 
SATURDAY, MAY 12: ([You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]) Madeleine is four years old. Day at resort with holiday group. Special Mass for Madeleine at 18.00 in Praia da Luz.
MONDAY, MAY 14: I slept well last night after a not very good end of the day, frustration with the FLO (Portuguese police family liaison officer) asking me where would my little M be.
I got up at 06.50. I dealt with some trifles and got myself ready for the statement to the press at 08.00.
I tried to put on a slightly more presentable and 'healthy' air. Gerry again gave a great performance.
Following on we answered about four questions. I almost responded to the first one asking how we were, but I didn't. I did answer a question on our possible return home. I replied that obviously I didn't even think about that. Anyway, it seemed to have gone well. After breakfast and our having left S and A, (twins Sean and Amelie, then aged two) we went to church to pray in silence. Very good, calming.
After getting back I decided to go running' for the first time since THE day (already 11 days ago). I knew that it was going to be physically difficult, but I also knew that I wasn't going to give up, because it was for Madeleine and also because the level of pain is far higher now.
No cameras or journalists, which was great. I went running towards the beach and then along it and again climbed that hill so steep 'without stopping! (I carried a photo of M in my hand to keep me going.) On the last hill past the tennis courts my legs completely weak, but I managed to keep myself walking. I managed to reach the apartment then time to stop' to think' I felt really quite calm.
 
WEDNESDAY, MAY 23: [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] (then Chancellor and PM in waiting) called and spoke with Gerry -very kind and giving encouragement.
Feeling a bit emotional afterwards.
 
SATURDAY, MAY 26: We went to an amusement park with the kids. Some phone calls, emails etc. Not a very good day for either the two of us' some dark thoughts/ frustrations/ desperation creeping in. Some tears.
(Then in a moving little message to Madeleine) I love you so much XXX
 
SUNDAY, MAY 27: Clarence ([You must be registered and logged in to see this link.], Foreign Office family liaison at the time) spoke to us about a possible trip to the Vatican. It seems that it really is going to happen' main story on the news!
Spoke to Dad. I went for a walk to the beach with [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]. Frozen. Beach' slippery, wet feet.
We all had dinner when we got back to the apartment.
We have to keep looking. We have to find you beloved xxxxx.
(Kate signed off the day's entry by drawing a heart with 'I LOVE MADELEINE' inside.)
 
WEDNESDAY, MAY 30: (After trip to see [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] detailed above) The kids went to bed again around 9pm!!! Low point of tonight' becoming desperate/without hope because of the lack of information. They are acting like they have no leads at all. Very worried.
Tomorrow it will be 4 weeks since Madeleine was taken. Four weeks since we saw our special little girl. We are not certain that we will ever see her again, but know that we have to keep up our hope and strength' for the others, at least. Exhausted.
I love you so much, Madeleine. You must come back! X
 
FRIDAY, JUNE 1: Quite fed up...I can't stop thinking about Madeleine, about her fear of pain. How can I go on knowing that her life could have ended like this'
This week I have been quite overtaken by black thoughts. Please, God, bring her back.
Bedtime is becoming more and more of a challenge.
 
SATURDAY, JUNE 2: I can't remember today (which is now yesterday!). The morning was spent doing paperwork. I wrote a letter to [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.], asking for her help in keeping M in the public eye. She has a new Harry Potter book which will come out in July. I asked if it would be possible to do something like a bookmark with M on.
An enjoyable afternoon' I never felt so relaxed. I felt it was wrong. S and A had fun and that was important. I also worried about what people might think, like 'How can they manage to...''
It seems that Sean is liking the beach more these days. We had tea in a nearby restaurant' good, despite still thinking that I had to do normal things without feeling guilty. We left around 7.30pm and the kids were completely exhausted.
Fed up again 'poor M. Once again it took a long time before S and A were sorted. Finally went to church for 10 minutes.
Private worship (despairing!).
Cried again in bed' I can't avoid it. I need her close to me. Thinking about her fear of pain breaks my heart. Thinking about paedophiles makes me want to tear at my own skin. Of course these people, like psychopaths, aren't 'normal' human beings. I was never in favour of the death penalty, but these people should be kept in a secure place. I wouldn't even complain if it was in nice surroundings, but, certainly in the case of paedophiles always distanced from any type of contact with children.
Whose human rights are more important' Those of a paedophile or of a vulnerable, defenceless child'
 
TUESDAY, JUNE 5: Woke up relatively late again, around 7.30am, with a good morning wake-up call from S and A. Adorable!! I just wish it had been all three of them that came into the room. After a shower and breakfast, I took S and A to the Kids' Club. I asked if they could make birthday cards for their Grandma and Gerry' today is his birthday but I had forgotten which is not surprising!
 
THURSDAY, JUNE 7: The Press conference went well. People are always asking how we are managing to cope, how we can manage to run a campaign, as if we are strange because we are able to appear calm and controlled and aren't going under all the time. They know so little. Nobody should judge or criticise because, unless they have already been in this situation, they have NO IDEA how they would be and certainly NO IDEA how painful it is. NO IDEA AT ALL. I love you so much Madeleine xxxx
I can't bear this. I can't bear being without Madeleine. It's like torture' a slow, painful death. I hope her suffering, if she is suffering, is much less. Please God.
 
SUNDAY, JUNE 17: Cherie Blair (then the Premier's wife) phoned to find out how we were.
We talked about everything in general, including about them leaving Number 10. She agreed as well to make a 20-second video clip for our broadcast on YouTube about Madeleine and children who have disappeared.
I also had the chance to speak to [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.]) who told me that we weren't to hesitate to ask him if there was something he could do to help.
On Sky News tonight they suddenly said the Portuguese police had stated that the crime scene had been contaminated' because of us' and that fundamental evidence had been lost. How dare they insinuate that our daughter's life could be put in danger because of us. Very angry. Very upset.
I want to speak to someone now, but it's too late.
I changed my mind and I sent a text message to Ricardo (Portuguese police family liaison officer). I don't know if was a sensible idea but I feel really annoyed.
My darling little Madeleine, you know that we wouldn't do anything to put you in danger.
I love you very much and I am in agony right now.
I only have to hope that God helps us all now and that he brings you back to us, safe and sound, very soon.
I need you to come back Madeleine. You are the best thing in my life that has ever happened to me. XXXXX
I ended up feeling very upset. Everything overflowed. Terrified that we might not get Madeleine back. I simply cannot face that. Tears, despair, rage, helplessness. I spoke to Gerry, recited prayers. Please God, bring her back XX
I fell asleep after 1am.
 
MONDAY, JUNE 18: I spent a few lovely hours with Sean and Amelie building a sandcastle with a moat, getting big hugs from Sean, ice creams.
Shower, lovely meal and a little playtime with the kids.
(But as night closes in Kate's anguish returns.)
I cant stand living like this. It's so painful and distressing. Dear Lord, PLEASE answer our prayers. PLEASE send Madeleine back to us. PLEASE.
I love you so, so much Madeleine, more than anything XXXXX.
 
TUESDAY, JUNE 19: Last night I didn't manage to get to sleep until around 1am because I was so upset again. It's so painful to be without Madeleine and I can't stand to think that it could be like this forever. This simply cannot happen.
Good night, good night Madeleine, I'm longing to read you a bedtime story again. I love you my little darling X.
 
I'm longing to read you a bedtime story again. I love you my little darling X.
 
WEDNESDAY, JUNE 20: There is still no sign of Madeleine. I didn't feel like it so I decided not to go running.
Went to pick up Gerry from the airport. It was so good to see him. Just before we reached the apartment we saw a man lying in the middle of the street, so we stopped the car and got out. It was no surprise to see that he was drunk (we've all been there!) but he recognised Gerry and me immediately. Gerry walked him round to his apartment.
 
THURSDAY, JUNE 21: I went to the church around 9.20pm to pray a bit by myself, in peace. I got a bit annoyed, I don't understand why God doesn't answer my prayers. I think I need a sign of some sort. I miss her so much. It is so painful and I don't feel my life is complete and I won't ever feel it is complete, if she doesn't come home. Gerry came down later on to be with me.
Apart from a glass of wine, chocolate and this diary, there's nothing much else to tell.
I LOVE YOU MADELEINE. GOOD NIGHT GOOD NIGHT X X X.
 
FRIDAY, JUNE 22: I miss Madeleine loads and that's a real understatement. Sometimes I think I must have done something so bad. (Then Kate recalls the IVF treatment she needed to get pregnant) It was so difficult and painful 'trying' to have Madeleine and now this!!!
Why''' Bad luck''' A sick joke''' And then I think I don't want to think about me' I'm an adult, but Madeleine, dear, sweet, vulnerable, beautiful Madeleine... and I just feel like screaming. WHY'
Dear Lord, I continue to ask, continue to hope, continue to try to have faith in You. Please help us. Put an end to this nightmare. Please help Madeleine. PLEASE LORD.

Madeleine, I love you with all my heart. You are part of my being and I will never feel whole without you. I hope and pray for the day, hopefully soon, when we will be reunited and together again FOREVER. I miss you so much. I need you. I love you. XXXXXXXXXXX
 
SATURDAY, JUNE 23: I woke up after 7am hesitating (again!) about going running but eventually I built up enough enthusiasm to convince Gerry that we should go. He ran quite well and without a doubt it was worth us going.
Will we see her again one day' How can this end well now' She's so precious. God I need you to do something soon. I'm so desperate and suffering so much.
This evening I felt quite low again. It's the awful uncertainty, helplessness and worry. It's really unbearable. I only want to be able to hide or hibernate until this is all over and Madeleine is back. Please make sure she's OK.
The usual' dinner, a few drinks and emails. Good night. Good night my darling, longing to lie down...
 
SUNDAY, JUNE 24: Oh, Madeleine, I find the nights so difficult and only God knows how things are going to find you. I just want to say, once again, that you have been the most special and amazing thing that ever happened to me.
I've never felt such love for another person. I hope and I trust that God and Mary are protecting you and I only know that Dad and I and all your wonderful family and friends will continue to search for you, and we all long for the day when you will be back with us again' FOREVER! XX
Good night. Good night darling. I love you XXXXXXXX
 
TUESDAY, JUNE 26: I went for a short walk to the shops nearby. I had heard that there was a paedophile there. Nice, isn't it'
If people informed us about these criminals of course we'd be more cautious and we'd feel safer!
Unfortunately I read two books of messages that had been delivered... There were three horrible ones. One from a former Met Police officer' very insensitive/ cruel and far from constructive! Another said 'R.I.P. Maddie' 'how appalling!
Well, not surprisingly I was very upset and I went out to the rocks on the beach. I cried a lot and spoke to Madeleine and to God. I was still not ready to go but Gerry was calling me. The police had arrived, as planned, at the apartment. I calmed down and went to the meeting with the police. Everything seems to be so slow. We finished at around 7pm so I went to be with the kids and tell them bedtime stories. I had dinner, had a few drinks despite having said I wanted it without alcohol!! We talked some more.
My darling Madeleine, I feel such fear and dread when I think of you. Every day and every night, it is TOO MUCH. I can only have hope and trust in God and Mary to look after you and bring you back to us soon.
I'm so sorry if I/we let you down. I hope you know how fond of you we are and that we would NEVER do anything intentionally that would put you in danger' of any kind. You are so precious to me. You make me so happy and I miss you so much. Please God, please Mary, keep watch over our sweet Madeleine. Keep her safe and sound and bring her back to us soon! X X
 
MONDAY, JULY 2: (The day the McCann's had to move from the Ocean Club apartment to a rented house.)
I started to put everything in the suitcases and then I took S and A to the Kids' Club around 09.20 and then I came back to pack the cases. We moved everything to the house around 10:30. Although now I think that it is a good thing to move to the house' with a bit more privacy' everything feels wrong and painful without Madeleine. I cannot believe that this has happened. She is so loving and I desperately want her back. Sean and Amelie appeared very excited about the 'new house' especially with regard to their room. After lunch on the terrace, Gerry filled the Jacuzzi with cold water and the children enjoyed themselves immensely in their 'swimming pool'. I went to look for Chinese food for 4.
Oh dear Madeleine, where are you' Are you nearby' Please keep well and be strong, my little one. We are desperate to find you. We love you very much. You are so special. I long to give you the biggest hug in the WORLD!! I miss you so much. I love you so much my dear Madeleine.'
 
THURSDAY, JULY 5: I got up at 7.15. Gerry went for a run.
NOTHING is or will be as good again without Madeleine.
I am thinking about you a lot, dearest Madeleine, and praying a lot so that we find you soon' alive and unharmed.
Stay strong' you know that we all love you very very very much XXXXX.
 
FRIDAY, JULY 6: (The day a man was arrested in Holland for a cruel hoax intended to extort '1.3million from the McCann's in return for details of the kidnappers and Madeleine's location.) I wrote my emails and finished our statement for when the story broke about the Dutch man's extortion near lunchtime.
He's 39, unemployed, says that he was bored and wanted to play with our emotions. Bastard. David Miliband (the new Foreign Secretary) phoned Gerry to offer support.
 
SATURDAY, JULY 7: We had breakfast and got the children ready as usual. At 10.30 the four of us went to the Algarve Shopping Centre.
The plan was to buy sandals and some other things for the children. However the journey was a disaster. We had to stop three times on the way there, since Sean and Amelie were crying alternately.




I began to feel that it had been a wasted day, even though Sean and Amelie had some good goes in Noddy's car and Popeye's boat. The return journey was slightly more bearable.
I had a 'moment' while we were having lunch. I saw a woman who looked pregnant and I began to think about when I was pregnant with Sean and Amelie. And then it hit me. (Kate then remembers a touching scene from the past.) Madeleine was coming to visit us later that evening, the look of wonder on her face, and afterwards she got in beside me in bed. She was and is so adorable' a real jewel, a real gift. And I painfully miss her.
At around 18.00 went to church. It was good... there was nobody else there. Later Gerry turned up and joined me and we went down as far as the rocks on the beach and talked a little about Madeleine. But I began to feel slightly pessimistic and fearful. Please, my God, prove to us that we are not wrong. But I was feeling worse. Please, my God, let this have a happy ending.
I have been thinking a lot about you today, Madeleine. I am so worried and frightened for you. I can only hope that God has you in his hands and brings you back to us soon. Please, my God, help us, help Madeleine.
We love her and we need her so much, and she loves us and needs us. Please, please, please make it so that we have some good news soon. Good night darling. I love you. (I can hardly wait to say 'See you tomorrow.') XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
 
THURSDAY, JULY 12: I hate the person who took my Madeleine'the same one who has caused all this trouble, who made us feel worthless and mistrustful and mainly who has frightened my beautiful Madeleine. I will never forgive that person/those people for this. Never.
Today I washed the Cuddle Cat (Madeleine's favourite soft toy and a constant comfort to heartbroken Kate). I was hoping not to have to do it until Madeleine returns, but it was now quite dirty and smelly, unfortunately without the smell of Madeleine on it. XX
 
TUESDAY, JULY 17: Finding it very difficult to talk to people from home, unless they are directly involved. It is difficult to show an interest in other people's lives and children at the moment. I know it sounds horrible, selfish and egocentric, but at the moment I can only think about Madeleine. I don't want to hear about anyone having babies or getting pregnant (mainly because it was all so very difficult for us). I'm worried about turning into a bitter, angry woman, that would be horrible. Please God bring Madeleine back and let this nightmare end.
Please don't let our lives be destroyed by this. Please don't let them hurt Madeleine.
Earlier today I found Amelie in our room looking at photos of Madeleine and she said: 'I miss my sister. Where's my sister''
I couldn't believe it. I didn't realise Amelie's vocabulary and use of words was so good. I just said: 'I miss her too. We'll find her soon.' What a little sweetheart!
She then turned her attention to something else.
We took turns jumping into the water with the kids, which was great fun. After a DVD and a story it was the twins' bedtime which didn't take too long tonight. Madeleine, we are all with you darling.
Keep strong, be patient, we'll keep on going till we find you. I love you so much. We hope and pray we'll see you soon.
Goodnight, my darling. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
 
WEDNESDAY, JULY 18: It was suggested that Madeleine is dead and buried in an area close to the beach, behind the cliff.
What can I say' I feel my body's on the verge of collapse. How much pain and emotion can one body take' I had a bad afternoon. I was very worried, desperate, extremely on edge. I don't think I can take any more of this, I really can't. How much longer will this suffering go on' I need Madeleine ALIVE.

SATURDAY, JULY 21: I continue to feel very low. I miss Madeleine so much. It's as if a ray of light has disappeared from my life. There's no doubt that Madeleine is that ray and I miss her more than words can say.
We just wrote our blogs/diaries. Once again those dark thoughts returned, linked with feelings of anxiety, fear and worry. How much longer will we have to cope with this pain'
My poor, poor Madeleine. Why, Lord' My heart aches with so much love for you, Madeleine. I just hate being without you.
(Kate then relives the last time they saw Madeleine in the Ocean Club apartment.)
If I could go back in time, I would. I have clear recollections of that night. You were so tired. After your baths, you sat on my knee and put my wedding ring on your finger. We (me, you, Sean and Amelie) read 'Mog' in the living area and then 'if you're happy and you know it'. We all sat down on your bed.
Then you counted the squares on the last page. You were always counting things on pages...always laying your head on your pillow at the same time every night. Madeleine you make me so happy. I just want you home. I love you so much. XXXXXXX

MONDAY, JULY 23: I got up at 7.00 and went running. I was surrounded by a pack of dogs (more or less 12)'it really wasn't a nice experience. I went to the flat, high part of the cliff as I felt really alone and a little frightened. Please God, don't let Madeleine be buried here. Please God, make sure she's alive. Please God, bring her back quickly to us.
I took S and A to the Kids' Club at 9.45 then I went to church to pray a little on my own.
Every single moment of happiness with Sean and Amelie, who are both so delightful, is mixed with deep sadness. All I want is Madeleine to be safe and happy again.
Baths, stories and some bedtime chaos from Sean and Amelie before I finally put them to bed at 21.15.
I spent some time on the internet reading about Sarah Payne (Roy Whiting), Eliz. Smart (Brian Mitchell) and the Peter Voisey case (he abducted a six-year-old girl from the bath in North Tyneside). Really horrible.
Night, night sweetheart. I'm trying to be positive. I need to be because I need to believe that you're going to come back to me, so I can go back to being truly happy. I love you XXX.

TUESDAY, JULY 24: Sean and Amelie had lots of fun in the Jacuzzi' laughter galore! Carrot sticks and crisps were had by all at teatime.
Oh, darling Madeleine. It pains me to think of you' it causes me such sorrow and I have no idea how you feel. I pray to God that you are well, that you are not hurt. I pray that God keeps you safe and sound and that you're not afraid, nor in pain.
Please God, answer my prayers and please, please, please bring Madeleine back to us very soon, for our own happiness. Please God.
Madeleine, sweetheart, I love you so much. I can't stop saying it. Night, night darling. We will keep hoping and having faith in God. XXXXXXX.

WEDNESDAY, JULY 25: I received some bad news last night. A friend has [You must be registered and logged in to see this link.] and has just received her first dose of chemotherapy following surgery. Horrible. I will include her in my prayers.
At around 15.30 I went for a run. I had begun to feel restless and worried about Madeleine. It was hot and hard work, but I felt better for having gone.
We returned at around 18.15'the children's dinner and baths, our dinner.
(and the children's once again!).
Madeleine, sweetheart, you are the most important thing, the only thing that matters. Words cannot describe how I feel about you nor how restless, tormented, alone, sad and incomplete I feel.
I will continue to hope and pray that you come back to us soon but I don't want to think about how good it would be to feel something like that' not yet, at least.
I love you so, so much darling. I remember sitting watching you through the glass window when you were having your swimming lessons on a Saturday morning. There you were with your yellow swimsuit, ever so pretty and you were smiling and waving at me, and the tears rolled down my face!
I was and am still so proud of you, Madeleine, and my love for you is never-ending. I can't stop saying how much I love you dearly. I'm going to try and stay strong for you and you have to do the same. You know we love you and we are going to keep going until we find you again.
All my love, Madeleine. Night, night. Sleep well. May God protect you. XXXXX.

SATURDAY, JULY 28: I got up at 7.30 after a late and disturbed night of sleep.
At around 16.20 we had a dip in the Jacuzzi. Sean and Amelie loved it. After tea I went to the small church. I was a little tearful.
It's really hard for me not to worry about the small things. I wonder does anyone brush her teeth' She looks so happy in that photo taken on that last day.
I know I'm repeating myself but I can't stop myself from saying how much I love you, Madeleine. I'll say it as many times as I need to. You're so, so special. XXXXX.

TUESDAY, JULY 31: (The day before police seized the diary) I got up early after another late and very disturbed night.
I dropped by the church. I feel better after these short conversations.
I cooked my first meal (since they took Madeleine!!) for dinner tonight.
Please God' make me right. Please God' protect her. Please God' bring her back to us soon!
Night, night Madeleine, by dearest little angel. My sweetheart, my darling, my love, my companion. I love you more than anything. Lots of hugs my darling. I'm going to dream that I'm lying by your side' moments I'll always cherish and I long to have again.
Sweet dreams my little one. Be strong. Mummy XXXXX.



On May 28 she wrote: 'I felt somewhat concerned. This is going to be a little too much, I only want Madeleine back and to return to our normal life.'
Two days later her diary recalls: 'Pope Benedict XVI arrived in his 'pope mobile' waving to everyone. It immediately became clear that he recognised us. He took hold of our hands and he was so gentle, so sincere.
'I thanked him for having allowed us to be there with him. He said he would pray for us and that he would continue to pray for Madeleine and for her safe return. I gave him the photo of Madeleine' he blessed it (with the thumb)' something that we would be able to keep for ever. A shy man but very friendly.
'Very emotional, very positive, very important' charming.
'Please, God, bring back to us little Madeleine. We love her so much and we miss her so much. Please Lord, help us to be united once again shortly as a family.
'Later on, Clarence (Foreign Office family liaison) told me that, before that (meeting the Pope), a butterfly had flown above and had landed on the bow on my hair.
'Following on, it left, but it came back and landed on my lapel. An omen, we hope.'



[Thanks to gerrymccannsblog]

THURSDAY, MAY 3: Milk and biscuits for the kids. I left them with this and books and games and went to have a quick shower/wash my hair. M (Madeleine) tired' sitting on my lap' I read the story of Mog (favourite children's book).
Brush teeth. To the bedroom with the kids. M pulls away and puts her head on pillow. Kisses goodnight for M. Pulled the door to as far as possible without shutting it. Silence.
Dry hair. Put make-up on. Glass of wine. Restaurant.




Hastily written revisionism congruent with the account?
Do even upper middle class people actually keep a journal of such mundane detail?

Sundance wrote:THURSDAY, MAY 3: Milk and biscuits for the kids. I left them with this and books and games and went to have a quick shower/wash my hair. M (Madeleine) tired' sitting on my lap' I read the story of Mog (favourite children's book).
Brush teeth. To the bedroom with the kids. M pulls away and puts her head on pillow. Kisses goodnight for M. Pulled the door to as far as possible without shutting it. Silence.
Dry hair. Put make-up on. Glass of wine. Restaurant.




Hastily written revisionism congruent with the account?
Do even upper middle class people actually keep a journal of such mundane detail?

If I remember correctly, this was all written up and deliberately left for the Portuguese Police to find.  Then they created a fuss when  someone published it, even when it was in their interest as it makes it look as though Madeleine was alive at that point.

Pure manipulation.

DIARY CONCLUSION
4486 Dispatches 25-26 June 2008 re: photocopies of KMH diary and their destruction
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Conclusion on 25-06-2008

In the sequence of the dispatch by Mmo JIC on page 2081 a diary was apprehended belonging to Kate Marie Healy, after being photocopied the original was returned (delivery note 2125).

In the sequence of the dispatch on page 2628 the decision about maintaining the diary in the files was relegated to the moment that its respective contents were known, taking into account that it could reveal personal material or information without relevance to the investigation.

Bearing in mind that the inquiries of the investigation are almost finished we request the Mmo JIC to make a pronouncement as to the relevance of the contents of the photocopied diary.
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Conclusion 26-06-2008

(Presents invoice)

The photocopies of the 'diary' do not contain any material of interest to the ongoing investigation, but relate to the personal and inviolable personal experiences of any person.

Accordingly I order the diary's respective destruction.

Portimao

2008-06-27

Pedro Frias
Criminal Instruction Judge
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sharonl wrote:

Sundance wrote:THURSDAY, MAY 3: Milk and biscuits for the kids. I left them with this and books and games and went to have a quick shower/wash my hair. M (Madeleine) tired' sitting on my lap' I read the story of Mog (favourite children's book).
Brush teeth. To the bedroom with the kids. M pulls away and puts her head on pillow. Kisses goodnight for M. Pulled the door to as far as possible without shutting it. Silence.
Dry hair. Put make-up on. Glass of wine. Restaurant.




Hastily written revisionism congruent with the account?
Do even upper middle class people actually keep a journal of such mundane detail?

If I remember correctly, this was all written up and deliberately left for the Portuguese Police to find.  Then they created a fuss when  someone published it, even when it was in their interest as it makes it look as though Madeleine was alive at that point.

Pure manipulation.

Surely obvious attempts at obfuscation are damning in themselves? Was this strategy the reason behind the differences of opinion with Joanne McGuiness?
....and I suppose the sketch and map of  Alentejo and the Algarve were also a ruse?

Sundance wrote:Was this strategy the reason behind the differences of opinion with Joanne McGuiness?

Who is Joanne McGuiness?

Verdi wrote:

Sundance wrote:Was this strategy the reason behind the differences of opinion with Joanne McGuiness?

Who is Joanne McGuiness?

Let me just check I haven't just made that name up.......
I'm thinking of the original spokesperson who had a fall out with Kate's mum and was summarily dismissed upon their hasty retreat back to Blighty.

*edit: Justine McGuiness

Why would Justine McGuinness fall out with Susan Healy, Kate McCann's mother?

Still, this has nothing to do with Kate McCann's diary.

Verdi wrote:Why would Justine McGuinness fall out with Susan Healy, Kate McCann's mother?

Still, this has nothing to do with Kate McCann's diary.

You knew who I was talking about.

Sorry, you've lost me .

Verdi wrote:Sorry, you've lost me .

That doesn't seem difficult to do.

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Statement Analysis: Diary of Kate McCann

The following is analysis of the diary of missing Madeleine McCann's mother's diary.

A diary is a form of communication, therefore, it is subject to analysis. Anything that is intended for communication can be set to analysis.

Statement Analysis, in all its forms, is not wooden, but it is fluid. Local dialect, expressions, education level, and so on, are all part of the analysis; but none of these things exempt the subject from analysis. Many seek to excuse or 'give a pass' of one way or another, by employing one of these topics. If someone communicates through sarcasm, we will recognize not only the sarcasm, but the words chosen, as they do not come from a vacuum.

In texting, we are able to employ ongoing techniques of analysis, recognizing patterns.

Please note that everyone has an internal, subjective, personal dictionary, and it is the SCAN technique of Statement Analysis that seeks to 'break the code' of the internal, personal, subjective dictionary, for the purpose of understanding.

Here is an example of applying principle in a fluid manner:

When a statement begins without a pronoun, it is very likely to be a deceptive statement. This is something police find regularly. "Went to the store..." begins without a pronoun, and it is an indication that the subject wishes to distance himself from the topic.

In texting or emails, we find that pronouns are often missing.

Does this negate analysis?

No.

Since texting or emailing often does not use pronouns, but abbreviations, our principle of analysis is always to note the pronouns.

If an email, for example, begins without a pronoun, we will not flag this for deception but we will note when a pronoun does, actually, appear, as highly significant.

In diary writing, we note names, spelling, and abbreviations.

When Kate writes, "M" referring to her daughter, we should seek to learn what causes her to write out the full name of her daughter in other entries. Pronouns (and proper names) remain important, as we seek to identify the subject's baseline of writing. If, for example, the email is known to have few pronouns, we recognize that this can be the norm; so that when a pronoun does suddenly appear, it should be flagged as important.

Education, intelligence, dialect, culture, and so on, does not negate analysis. Nor does writing styles.

Next, we know that pronouns and verb tenses are learned very early in life, with some pre dating speech ("my, mine" can be communicated from very young children even before annunciation is clear). By the age of 5 (or an adult with cognitive disabilities who functions as a 5 year old) understands past, present, and future.

We may make adjustments as we go along, but if the purpose of the writing or speaking is to communicate, analysis can be done.

In understanding this case, we will be doing over time, more analysis, particularly if the original interrogation transcripts become available.

Some of the analysis questions:

Why was the diary written?  What is its purpose?
When was the diary written?
Intended audience?

We will note such principles as order, priority and substance.

Diary Notes - May 2007
Autumn on Thu Mar 17, 2011 6:22 pm
THURSDAY, MAY 3: Milk and biscuits for the kids. I left them with this and books and games and went to have a quick shower/wash my hair. M tired—sitting on my lap—I read the story of Mog.

Note "left" as a verb; generally speaks to as missing information, 70% time, 30% sensitive.  The 70% time usually indicates a sense of rushing or being hurried.  The 30% sensitive is the unknown.  The context here shows a slight increase in tension.

Note "sitting"; When body posture enters a statement, there is often an increase in tension, therefore, we flag "sit, sat, stood, standing, sitting" and so on, as sensitive for a possible increase in tension.  She "left" them with milk and biscuits;
Next note the inclusion of "shower/wash" in a statement often is associated with sexual abuse.  Please note that this is not a statement, but a diary. Therefore, we ask, "why does the subject feel it is important enough to mention?  Is this a theme?  Does a pattern emerge?

We will call attention to things regarding statement, then seek to learn why they are in a diary.  Was the tension due to rushing through the shower, washing of hair, and reading to M?

Note the children are referenced first by "kids".
Next, note "M" is the initial of her daughter.  Note where she is called "M"

Note, however, that no other child is specified by name nor initial.


Brush teeth. To the bedroom with the kids. M pulls away and puts her head on pillow. Kisses goodnight for M. Pulled the door to as far as possible without shutting it. Silence.

Dry hair. Put make-up on. Glass of wine. Restaurant.

Note that "brushing teeth" is rarely found in statements and usually indicates withheld information about personal relationship; often domestic violence.  

Why the need to include brushing teeth in a diary, since brushing teeth is something always done by all of us?

This should be considered sensitive.

Note "kids" mentioned again, but no name of the kids other than "M"  

Why are the other children not mentioned by name?

Note what did not happen as important:  she finds it important to tell us that she did not close the door.

"M pulls away" is interesting.  Why did M pull away?  From whom or what did she pull away?
"Kisses goodnight" is something to be noted.   In domestic homicides, we flag greeting/salutation as possible time of death.  Here it is in a diary.  Why the need to tell us she was kissed goodnight?  Were the other children kissed goodnight?   In statements, kisses goodnight or good morning greetings are often indicative of a poor relationship when a spouse mentions it.  What is its meaning here?

Why do the other kids not have names or initials used?

Note that dry hair, make up and restaurant all have to do with subject; not child.


FRIDAY, MAY 4: No sleep, Gerry and I started looking through the streets around 06.00 as it was starting to get light. Nobody around. Why not? Desperate.

Minutes seem like hours. Outside of the apartments masses of people asking questions about that night and for descriptions of Madeleine. Long day.

Note "Gerry and I" is used.  Since this is a diary, why not use the pronoun "we"?
Note all the dropped pronouns as a consistent pattern.  Diary writing is brief, so we will assume that the shortest sentence is the most likely, including dropped pronouns.  Therefore, why "Gerry and I"?  

Next note that something is reported to have started ("started looking" and "starting to get light") but without completion.  

Note as important, the name "Madeleine" is used here, rather than "M".  What is the contextual difference?

"M" is at home, read to, put to bed.
"Madeleine" is missing.

Note people asking questions should be something natural and expected.
Note "long day" as unexpected.  It is unexpected that a mother of a missing child would have thoughts on her own care with the words "long day" rather than what Madeline might be going through.

Nobody from the police introduced themselves. Nobody offered us a drink or food. All the police dressed informally and smoking. No sympathy was shown and far from inspiring.

Note the order:

1.  Nobody from police introduced themselves.
2.   Nobody offered her drink or food.
3.   The clothing/appearance of police, and their habit of smoking
4.   No one offered sympathy.
5.  Far from inspiring.

As yourself:  if you were writing a diary about your missing child, what might be the first thing you write about?  What might not enter into your thinking?

The order above suggests a very strong concern about the subject herself.


I believe my statement would have been around 15.00 and such. They allowed G to come in with me but seated behind me. Translator present.

The police officer who took us by car to the station was the one asking the questions and afterwards typed the answers on a typewriter. Morose.

Note "G" is used here for Gerry, using the shortest possible.
Note the asking of questions has now been repeated in the short diary, making question asking a sensitive topic.
Note "with" between people shows distance;
note the body posture mentioned.


We left the police station around 7.30pm to 8pm. After 15 minutes we received a call from the PJ saying we had to go back but they didn't tell us why. We turned around and flew back at around 200 kilometres an hour. Once again frightening. Did they find her? Please God. Is she dead? Prayers. We arrived—they showed us a photo of a girl they'd forgotten to show us from the close circuit TV footage. Not M. Devastating.

Note the entrance of the pronoun.
"We left..." rather than the usual short, "Left".  Note in this entry how pronouns return to use:
the word "we" has a heavy usage here.  Why the need for emphasis now?
Note that Madeleine is now "M" again as referred to incorrectly as a picture.  
We continue to note the context.  While being fed, or put to sleep, and regarding a photo:  M
When missing, Madeleine.
Note the questions as important:
Did they find her?
Is she did?

Note that in these two questions, there is a change of verb tense?

Did they find her?
Was she dead? is not used, but "is she dead?"
Note "devastated" does not use a pronoun, though this entry has much used.

SATURDAY, MAY 12: Madeleine is four years old. Day at resort with holiday group. Special Mass for Madeleine at 18.00 in Praia da Luz.

Here, on her birthday, she continues to be "Madeleine" which is a longer writing in a diary than the initial "M"

MONDAY, MAY 14: I slept well last night after a not very good end of the day, frustration with the FLO asking me where would my little M be.

Note the pronoun used here to describe her sleep whereas above it is "no sleep."
Note here the use of the initial, "M"

I got up at 06.50. I dealt with some trifles and got myself ready for the statement to the press at 08.00.

Note the repeated use of "I" here; no shortcuts as before.  There is an inconsistency in pronoun use.

I tried to put on a slightly more presentable and "healthy" air. Gerry again gave a great performance.

Note "I" and "Gerry", rather than no pronoun and "G"

Following on we answered about four questions. I almost responded to the first one asking how we were, but I didn't. I did answer a question on our possible return home. I replied that obviously I didn't even think about that. Anyway, it seemed to have gone well. After breakfast and our having left S and A, we went to church to pray in silence. Very good, calming.

3 lines cover answering questions.

Note "we" and "about" four questions; not an exact answer.  Note the change to "I" which is stronger, telling us what wasn't done; always important.
Note that "obviously" is used when the subject wants us to take for granted something without questioning.

Note "S and A" now has the other children mentioned.

After getting back I decided to go running—for the first time since THE day (already 11 days ago). I knew that it was going to be physically difficult, but I also knew that I wasn't going to give up, because it was for Madeleine and also because the level of pain is far higher now.

No cameras or journalists, which was great. I went running towards the beach and then along it and again climbed that hill so steep —without stopping! (I carried a photo of M in my hand to keep me going.) On the last hill past the tennis courts my legs completely weak, but I managed to keep myself walking. I managed to reach the apartment then time to stop—to think—I felt really quite calm.

Note that the subject has 7 lines dedicated to her running with strong use of "I" as central.  This is unexpected in a missing baby case.
Note how often the pronoun "I" is used.  The context is her running and her emotions (self).  This should be noted in comparison when pronouns are missing.

WEDNESDAY, MAY 23: Gordon Brown called and spoke with Gerry -very kind and giving encouragement.

Feeling a bit emotional afterwards.

Full name; important person.  Note "Gerry" rather than abbreviation.

SATURDAY, MAY 26: We went to an amusement park with the kids. Some phone calls, emails etc. Not a very good day for either the two of us—some dark thoughts/ frustrations/ desperation creeping in. Some tears.

Note "kids" are now not mentioned by name.

I love you so much XXX

SUNDAY, MAY 27: Clarence spoke to us about a possible trip to the Vatican. It seems that it really is going to happen—main story on the news!

Spoke to Dad. I went for a walk to the beach with Sean and Amelie. Frozen. Beach—slippery, wet feet.

This is the first entrance where the children's names are used.  Note that "I" and the word "with" show the furthest distance.  The lack of mentioning of the children and now the distancing language is noted.
We all had dinner when we got back to the apartment.

We have to keep looking. We have to find you beloved xxxxx.


"We have to keep looking" is a reminder to keep searching for her child.  This is also unexpected as a mother would not need to remind herself in a diary:  leading us to ask to whom this is written.  


WEDNESDAY, MAY 30:  The kids went to bed again around 9pm!!! Low point of tonight—becoming desperate/without hope because of the lack of information. They are acting like they have no leads at all. Very worried.

Unknown as to why the sentence "the kids went to bed again around 9pm" would receive three exclamation marks.  
"Very worried" has no pronoun, which is unusual since the diary uses pronouns in large amount, especially the use of "I" associated with running, above.  This is unexpected and a weak assertion of being "very worried" and will cause doubt.

Tomorrow it will be 4 weeks since Madeleine was taken. Four weeks since we saw our special little girl. We are not certain that we will ever see her again, but know that we have to keep up our hope and strength—for the others, at least. Exhausted.

This is troubling:
1.  Note Madeleine "was taken" is passive and not "kidnapped" which is stronger.  
2.  Note the absence of the pronoun, "I" in relation to Madeleine is highly unexpected by a mother.
3.  Note how often "we" is used
4.  Note "our" special little child uses "our", something often seen where a step parent is involved, or divorce is discussed.  
5.  Note that this is inconsistent:  "we" are not writing the diary, but "I" am
6.  Note that when the subject speaks of herself, there are more lines, but when she writes of Madeleine, there are less.
7.  Note "but know" is missing pronoun:  "but I know" would be stronger; here it is not even "we know"

The diary should be either written by one or written by two, and the change back and forth will cause some to question the veracity of the subject:  is the subject writing to keep a record of her emotions, her activities?  Is it therapeutic?

Or:  Is this an attempt to persuade readership?

I love you so much, Madeleine. You must come back! X

"You" must come back; not "I" must get you back, etc


Diary Notes - June 2007

FRIDAY, JUNE 1: Quite fed up...I can't stop thinking about Madeleine, about her fear of pain. How can I go on knowing that her life could have ended like this?

It is quite unexpected for a mother who thinks her child was "taken" to accept that her life may have ended, so soon after the event.  This is similar to a parent of a missing child speaking of the child in the past tense.  It is one thing to have doubts and fears (see below) but this is a rhetorical question.

This week I have been quite overtaken by black thoughts. Please, God, bring her back.

Here, she asks God to bring her back, rather than direct to Madeleine to come back

Bedtime is becoming more and more of a challenge.

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There are also some observations by CMoMM's very own statement analyst - Hobs!

What a travesty that the astute inimitable l-azzeri-lies-in-sun no longer comments on the case. Sorely missed in my view..

A Disturbing Diary

Sunday, June 17th 2007

Kate McCann Diary Entry:

I want to speak to someone now, but it's too late.

I changed my mind and I sent a text message to Ricardo (Portuguese police family liaison officer).

I don't know if was a sensible idea but I feel really annoyed.'
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In January 2010 at a Court Hearing in Portugal, the above named Portuguese Police Officer, Ricardo Paiva the Family Liaison Officer to the McCann family, stated that Kate McCann had phoned him two months after the disappearance of Madeleine, it was at a time I believe when Gerry McCann was not in Portugal with his family. He further stated that Kate McCann had told him of a dream she had where Madeleine was dead, buried on a hillside in Praia da Luz.

An extremely angry Gerry McCann, leaving the Court, and not accompanied by his wife Kate McCann (who left later) had this to say to waiting reporters:

"I would like to make it absolutely clear that Kate has never had a dream that Madeleine was buried somewhere. And, I don't know if something has been lost in translation, but that didn't happen."

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It is perfectly clear from the above diary entry by Kate McCann that SHE DID make contact with Portuguese Police Family Liaison Officer, Ricardo Paiva two months after Madeleine disappeared - exactly as the officer had stated in Court in Portugal had happened.

What was said during that conversation, only Kate McCann and Ricardo Paiva know for sure.

What we can know for sure though, is that nothing was 'lost in interpretation' be that in a simple misunderstanding, or in interpretation of language - Officer Paiva I am sure was appointed the Family Liaison Officer to the McCanns as he spoke English - would be pretty daft to have sent an officer who didn't, as McCanns speak only the English language!

It would be very difficult to misinterpret someone saying they had a dream about their missing daughter being buried on a hillside. That's a statement that would have any police officer springing into action. And one would have to think that Kate McCann knew this.

Gerry McCann by his angry statement outside the Court, though is in fact declaring that Officer Ricardo Paiva lied.

Reading the material, police witness statements, interviews given by McCanns what comes across and overwhelmingly so, is that anyone, anyone at all, be that a member of the public, the police, from any nation, any witnesses who make a statement which is shall we say 'not helpful' to their still unproven story that Madeleine was abducted, have to be openly deemed as liars!

Gerry McCann stated also that there was no evidence that Madeleine is dead.

There is no evidence she was ever abducted.

The evidence gathered by the police investigation in Portugal, points to a very different scenario from that of abduction.

And, the

Metropolitan Police have been unable, during the course of their two year investigative review of this case, to come up with any evidence of an abduction having taken place!

But why would all of these people lie, members of the public, police about what they saw or heard in relation to the McCanns, and Madeleine's disappearance?

They did not know the McCanns. They were simply individuals who came forward in response to police authority appeals, helping with police inquiries, giving their witness statements. They did not, and have not any reason to lie, make false statements.

On the other hand, the McCanns and their holiday companions, it is on record, well documented, have not been entirely truthful, have indeed made false statements, and on a grand scale.

It was Kate McCanns call to Officer Paiva, which he correctly reported to his superior officers which resulted it is said in the cadaver and blood dogs being brought to Portugal. The hillside being searched.

It would seem from Gerry McCanns outburst outside the Court, that his wife Kate McCann had not informed him of the contact she had made with Officer Paiva which had led to this search.

But why would any search for Madeleine be a bad thing? Is that not what the McCanns want/ed for 'no stone to be left unturned? It is a search one would have thought they would have welcomed.

What if Madeleine was buried on the hillside and the police had not taken action? I guess that too would have given Gerry McCann cause to complain about the police.

So who do we believe - Gerry McCann (who on behalf of his wife denies that she made any such statement) Gerry McCann, a man not known for being truthful in the case of his missing daughter. A man WHO CHANGED HIS VERSION OF ACCOUNTS OF HIS MOVEMENTS on the night his daughter vanished - OR, Police Officer Paiva?

Police Officer Paiva has no reason to lie - why would he?

It is interesting that Officer Paiva stated that Kate McCann told him she had a dream about Madeleine being buried on the hillside in Praia da Luz. Why would he say a hillside?

Perhaps this next diary entry by Kate McCann throws a little light on the matter, as it is clear Officer Paiva would not randomly say that Kate McCann mentioned a hillside!

Diary Entry

Monday May 14th

After getting back I decided to go running' for the first time since THE day (already 11 days ago). I knew that it was going to be physically difficult, but I also knew that I wasn't going to give up, because it was for Madeleine and also because the level of pain is far higher now.

No cameras or journalists, which was great. I went running towards the beach and then along it and again climbed that hill so steep 'without stopping! (I carried a photo of M in my hand to keep me going.)

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So Kate McCann went running for the first time since Madeleine vanished or since ‘THE’ day as she describes it in her diary entry, and AGAIN climbed that hill (presumably by this statement, she climbed 'that hill' at some point before Madeleine’s reported disappearance if this was her first time out running since?)

I would say from this, it reinforces the truth told by Officer Paiva!

Kate McCann, as early as 11 days after her daughters disappearance went running on the hillside. She states 'again' therefore she had done this also at some point before this '11 day' marker (before Madeleine vanished?) And she would no doubt have done so more times after this date in May when she made the entry in her diary, and the time she contacted Officer Paiva in June 2007.

There can be no doubt as to where the 'hillside story' came from - Kate McCann!

To be noted also, on that same day, Monday, May 14th 2007 Kate McCann made this following entry in her diary:

" I slept well last night after a not very good end of the day, frustration with the FLO (Portuguese police family liaison officer) asking me where would my little M be."

***Her 'little 'M' being Madeleine***

Again this statement confirms that Kate McCann did speak with Officer Paiva with regards where Madeleine could be and on more than one occasion!

So Officer Paiva had asked of her at some point - where she thought Madeleine could be, and this had caused her frustration?

Did this prompt the call to Paiva some weeks later, telling him of her dream that Madeleine was buried on the hillside?

I would suggest Kate McCann was rattled by Paiva asking her this question as to Madeleine's whereabouts (in May 2007)...I would further suggest that she did not have a dream about where Madeleine was buried, but dreamed up a story to tell Paiva, the Portuguese Police some weeks later in June 2007...

This type of tactic by the McCanns has been used so very often throughout this case - look there, not here!

When it comes to the truth of matters, I know who my money is on!

Rather interestingly too is that Kate McCann said:

"No cameras or journalists, which was great."

Much has been said about the McCanns not being able to do anything unseen or unhindered, after Madeleine vanished - the press were always around - how could they have done this or that - their every movement monitored.

If we are to believe Kate McCanns diary entries, she did an awful lot, and when Gerry was not around too, and there were as she said -
NO cameras or journalists. So they could have done anything really, and unnoticed.

Would the press have missed the opportunity to snap Kate McCann running up the hillside, photo of Madeleine in hand?

So which is it? They could not move without being hounded by media - OR did Kate McCann invent her little story of carrying Madeleine's picture up the hillside? Her running gear has no pockets, so unless she stuck the pic in her running shoe - or her knickers...

And why did she not take cuddle cat for a jog up the hillside? Was he only a prop for when there were cameras and journalists around?

But how interesting she states - no cameras, no journalists?

Goncalo Amaral said that Kate McCanns book 'Madeleine' may become a document of evidence - I think we can safely add her diary to that too...

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