Prosecution Exhibit 1: 'madeleine' - What's in the book?

by **Tony Bennett** 12.05.11 12:35

Unfortunately perhaps but early comments have been focussed on these three sentences on page 129 of the book:

"I asked Gerry apprehensively if he'd had any really horrible thoughts or visions of Madeleine. He nodded. Haltingly, I told him about the awful pictures that scrolled through my head of her body, her perfect little genitals torn apart".

The events of 3 May up to including the alleged 'discovery' that Madeleine was missing are dealt with fairly sketchily on pages 62 to 72. In summary, Dr K McCann has made an attempt to 'square' all the discrpancies about that day's events that we have been discussing, I would say not very successfully...I am sure there'll be much discussion about this in the ways to come. The way the complete contradiction between the evidence of Dr D Payne and Dr K McCann about his visit to the apartment has been dealt with is crafty i.e. well crafted, but really only papers over the series of sharp contradictions about this event (if it ever really happened).

There's not much about their private investigations, though Kevin Halligen gets a mention.

NOTE: Tony Bennett has now commented on the whole of Chapter 19 (pages 280-300 inc.) further down this thread on PAGE 5 - Admin.

Dr Kate writes (p. 283):

"We had one particularly bad experience with a man named Kevin Halligen (or Richard, as we knew him). Halligen was the CEO of a private-investigation foirm calld Oakley International which was hired by Madeleine's Fund for six months from the end of March 2008..."

She then refers to three 'phases' of the Halligen investigation, saying only that during the third phase, "...we began to have concerns".

Later (p. 284), she admits:

"Several months later, one of the investigators subcontracted by Oakley contacted us to demand paymet for his services. We had already settled Oakley's bill for this work months before, but apparently the company had not paid him. He was not the only one...We were upset..."

There is no mention whatsoever of any attempt by wither the McCanns or by the Find Madeleine Fund to sue Halligen for his obviously fraudulent conduct.

[More later...]

by The Shelfstacker 12.05.11 13:46

One wonders what CEOP would make of page 129. Or the NSPCC.

by Guest 12.05.11 14:12

littlepixie, I have also quoted your post in this thread, as it applies in here, and also carries a screenshot of the page Prosecution Exhibit 1: 'madeleine' - What's in the book? 636506

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littlepixie wrote:Has anyone seen Renoirs post on MM Page 119 of Kate McCanns book " "Haltingly, I told him about the awful pictures that scrolled through
my head of her body, her perfect little ge****ls torn apart".

Words fail me. I feel sick. The woman needs taking into custody.

It is on page 129 (not 119) - Admin.

I have to say I am totally shocked and appalled by this. What ever possessed her to put such things into a book, that she says she wanted Madeleine to read. How does this square with .............. Whoever she's with I hope she's giving them her tuppence worth???(Or words to that effect)

by **Jill Havern** 12.05.11 14:15

Kate wants Maddie to read a book about her genitals and her mum's sex life.

She's only 8 years old.

No wonder Kate didn't bat an eyelid about what Dr Gaspar said in her statement to the police about David Payne making sexual gestures about Maddie.

sick

by Guest 12.05.11 14:16

That is totally upsetting, can't find the words, and to have to read that on what would have been Madeleine's 8th birthday

by littlepixie 12.05.11 14:44

Thanks for the correction to the Page number. I felt a mixture of sadness, anger and sickness when I read the page and thought about the Gaspar statement. I am convinced that what Mrs McCann describes on Page 129 could be the reason Madeleines body had to be hidden.

by maebee 12.05.11 14:50

Pages from the book:

page 79: (re: Yvonne Martin) "(...) and I still don't really know who she is and what she was trying to achieve".

page 97: (re: father Pacheco coming to meet them on the evening of may 5th) "My first impression was of a very cheery chap. Nothing wrong with that, but at the time his smiling face seemed out of place in the grief-laden atmosphere of our apartment".

page 98: (re: speaking outside the church) "I know I was crying (...) and every word came from the heart"

Page 119: (beware Prosecution Exhibit 1: 'madeleine' - What's in the book? Bad

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) "Haltingly, I told him about the awful pictures that scrolled through my head of her body, her perfect little genitals torn apart".

I find this last page extremely disturbing. It is just unbelievable that she could commit those thoughts to paper where the twins will one day be able to read it. KM is one seriously disturbed woman.

by The Rooster 12.05.11 14:57

That´s dreadful. Beyond belief.

by Guest 12.05.11 15:07

I have merged the topic "the Book" by maebee, in latest news, with this one as they are both the same.

by maebee 12.05.11 15:27

candyfloss wrote:I have merged the topic "the Book" by maebee, in latest news, with this one as they are both the same.

Thanks candy. Sorry for opening a duplicate thread. I didn't see this one. To be honest, I've been literally shaking since I first saw page 129. To put these thoughts so graphically into a book that all her family (including the twins) can read is beyond belief. I just cannot get my head around it.

Someone on another board said "Maybe this is the way Kate found Madeleine" Prosecution Exhibit 1: 'madeleine' - What's in the book? 938379

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by Guest 12.05.11 15:28

Tony Bennett wrote:Unfortunately perhaps but early comments have been focussed on these three sentences on page 129 of the book:

"I asked Gerry apprehensively if he'd had any really horrible thoughts or visions of Madeleine. He nodded. Haltingly, I told him about the awful pictures that scrolled through my head of her body, her perfect little genitals torn apart".

I am in a state of disbelief with that comment. No mother on this planet would ever consider this, let alone write about it. That woman has serious problems.

How can they claim Madeleine is still alive, then come out with something like that?

by **PeterMac** 12.05.11 15:56

I am not going to quote it again, but I refer to it.
Some time ago Mitchell said they had been advised not to show emotion in public because the alleged abductor might find it exciting, or words to that effect.
Now they say they WANT him to read what is little less than pederast pornography. They WANT that same person to read about their sex lives, and how her disappearance has adversely affected them, and incredibly they WANT their 8 year old daughter to do the same.
Are they reading it aloud to the twins when they put them to bed, instead of Peter Rabbit ?
What has Mitchell got to say now ?
And how do they maintain that Madeleine has come to no harm when Kate is now saying that very obviously for years they have known, like everyone else, that even in their strange invented Disney scenario she would have been, how shall we say, severely and seriously ill-treated, and that their own decision to go public on the eye defect would have signed her death warrant.

by Guest 12.05.11 17:27

When it comes to marking the anniversaries of Madeleine's disappearance, I thought it would be difficult for the McCanns to come up with anything worse than last year's video with those disquieting images. Well, they have certainly trumped it with the publication of this book. I can only wonder what planet they and their supporters are on and for much longer they will be allowed to carry on their charade.

by **PeterMac** 12.05.11 17:56

I wonder if the Sun or the Mail will be publishing that particular sentence ?
And if not, why not ?
If it is OK for an 8 year old to read, - because they have said they hope Madeleine will read the book - then it must be OK for Sun and Mail readers too.

by maebee 12.05.11 17:58

PeterMac wrote:I wonder if the Sun or the Mail will be publishing that particular sentence ?
And if not, why not ?
If it is OK for an 8 year old to read, - because they have said they hope Madeleine will read the book - then it must be OK for Sun and Mail readers too.

I believe it has been edited in The Sun. It has now disappeared from MCF and MM.

by Cheshire Cat 12.05.11 19:11

maebee wrote:
PeterMac wrote:I wonder if the Sun or the Mail will be publishing that particular sentence ?
And if not, why not ?
If it is OK for an 8 year old to read, - because they have said they hope Madeleine will read the book - then it must be OK for Sun and Mail readers too.

I believe it has been edited in The Sun. It has now disappeared from MCF and MM.

Very shocked to read that and the other similarly shocking extracts earlier in the week. The Gaspar statement and Yvonne Martin statements both express concerns about DAPy Doc, concerns which have multiplied in light of the Paedo Porn written by KM.

As these written words are very much on-line, shouldn't CEOP be notified? (With Gamble gone they might not fall on deaf ears!)

by tiny 12.05.11 19:17

who was the last person out of the tapas pals who was the last to see Madeleine,in light of that vile sentence kate wrote and the gasper's statement i think this is important.

by **Tony Bennett** 12.05.11 19:28

tiny wrote:who was the last person out of the tapas pals who was the last to see Madeleine,in light of that vile sentence kate wrote and the gasper's statement i think this is important.

tiny, if I may say so, I think it is as well to dismiss from your mind the notion that we have anything approaching an accurate account from the McCanns and the 'Tapas 7' of the events of the afternoon and evening of 3 May 2007.

Coupled with the evidence of a death in the apartment, we perhaps need to look at events earlier in the week to explain what happened to Madeleine.

But you're right, the last person to see the missing or dead person alive is usually the key in the case of missing personss or unexplained deaths.

by tiny 12.05.11 19:33

thanks tony,so all this that was suposed to have happend on the thursday(abduction) was staged and what happend to Madeleine could have happend a day or so earlier

by **PeterMac** 12.05.11 19:38

Which is why the one who was supposed to have made the visit after Gerry was veryt quick to say he didn't actually look inside the room, but merely listened. Far too dangerous to be the last person.
Which then leaves us with Gerry as the last person,
Except that according to all her statements and now confirmed in the book Gerry did NOT make the visit he said he did. Otherwise it would be impossible for Kate to say that the door was open wider than "When WE had left it".
The book has been proof read by them, and by lawyers, and this has been left in.
It must therefore be accurate (musn't it ?)
It follows that Kate is saying clearly that Gerry did not make that visit and is therefore lying.
Why have they left that in. Why did they not alter the wording to something more woolly?
And that leaves K and G as the last ones, jointly, to see Madeleine at 8:30 ish. I do not include the word "alive' for obvious reasons.

by Guest 12.05.11 19:48

PeterMac wrote:Which is why the one who was supposed to have made the visit after Gerry was veryt quick to say he didn't actually look inside the room, but merely listened. Far too dangerous to be the last person.
Which then leaves us with Gerry as the last person,
Except that according to all her statements and now confirmed in the book Gerry did NOT make the visit he said he did. Otherwise it would be impossible for Kate to say that the door was open wider than "When WE had left it".
The book has been proof read by them, and by lawyers, and this has been left in.
It must therefore be accurate (musn't it ?)
It follows that Kate is saying clearly that Gerry did not make that visit and is therefore lying.
Why have they left that in. Why did they not alter the wording to something more woolly?
And that leaves K and G as the last ones, jointly, to see Madeleine at 8:30 ish. I do not include the word "alive' for obvious reasons.

Ah but in the Piers Morgan interview on CNN (on again at 8pm tonight - sky 501) she is now very quick to say and include Matt in the scenario. She says something like, could Matt have left the door open wider than we had left it. She had never mentioned this before in all the interviews they've done.

I'm just off to watch it again, as there is something else that has piqued my interest. winkwink

by Letterwriter 12.05.11 20:05

The sentence on p119 is something I wish I could "unread". Unfortunately, I think it will be difficult to get it out of my head.

It's on page 129 of the book for future reference - Admin.

by **Tony Bennett** 12.05.11 22:32

SUMMARY AND CRITIQUE OF KATE'S BOOK

I will try and post a 'summary of critique' of each chapter of Dr Kate's book over the next few days.

I'll begin with Chapter 12, titled 'Morocco':

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SUMMARY AND CRITIQUE

Chapter 12 ‘ Morocco’

p. 179

The chapter begins with the McCanns flying out to Rabat, Morocco, on Sunday 12 June.

Dr Kate was ‘terrified’ flying in a small ‘pre-war propeller plane’ because the jet for Morocco had broken down.

At a hotel in Rabat a camera crew was waiting for them.

p. 180

They had questions about a statement by Mari Olli, a Norwegian who swore she’d seen Madeleine in Marrakesh and had rung the Spanish police. Dr Kate explains how the Spanish and Portuguese police did nothing about it. The CCTV camera in the shop wasn’t checked in time. Dr Kate insists in the book that the girl Mari Olli saw could really be Madeleine.

They spent that night at the British Ambassador’s Morocco residence.

The following day the McCanns met several ‘important and powerful figures’, the Chief of Police and two government Ministers among them - they ‘must have had permission from the King of Morocco’.

p. 181

Later that day the McCanns met a ‘crowd of children’ who were waving placards with Madeleine on them; this had been organised by the government. The McCanns met with some Muslim leaders and asked them to pray for Madeleine which they agreed to do. Telling a slight white lie, they said they ‘lived in Leicester’, where there are a lot of Muslims. (There aren’t many Muslims in Rothley).

p. 182

Clarence was out there with them and they had to say goodbye to Clarence who had to go back to his job at the Media Monitoring Unit for a while.

p. 183

On 22 June Justine McGuiness arrived. Dr Kate recounts the story of the Dutch newspaper publishing a report of how Madeleine might be buried at Odiaxere, which turned out to be false.

In one of many passages in this book about Dr Kate’s emotions, she says: “…cold hard reality was hitting me with a sickening thud” and she goes on to refer to her “suffocating fear”.

p. 184

On 17 June there was a report in the Portuguese press claiming that the PJ said that ‘the crime scene was contaminated by the McCanns and their friends’. Dr Kate says: “I was livid” and “…this hurt badly”. (In fact, around 16-18 people tramped round the alleged scene of the crime - their apartment - before the police arrived).

Dr Kate reports how Gerry reacted with fiery indignation and rang John Buck, the Ambassador, Bill Henderson, the Consul, Bob Small from leicestershire C.O.D. and Ricardo Paiva demanding ‘an explanation and redress’.

pp. 185-6

Alex Woofall told them all not to talk to any reporter because ‘there was nothing to be gained’ by doing so. That led to the ‘Pact of Silence’ story which Dr Kate says was the first negative story about them. She complains that someone had given all their friends their mobile ’phone numbers, Dr Kate says it could only be someone in the PJ.

pp. 186-7

The McCanns are approached by Danie Krugel who speaks of his ‘matter orientation system’. He needs some of Madeleine’s hairs to establish where she is. The McCanns are ‘excited’ and arrange to get five hairs and two eyelashes from Madeleine pillow and clothing and they are duly despatched to Mr Krugel. He comes back soon and pinpoints Madeleine as still in Praia da Luz, but says he needs to come to the Algarve to get a more precise location. The McCanns agree. Krugel doesn’t let anyone examine his machine ‘to protect my trade secrets’.

p. 188

Dr Kate raises with police inspector Luis Neves the significance of her friends Fiona, Rachael and Russell all saying they reported seeing Robert Murat hanging around the Ocean Club on the night Madeleine was reported missing. Luis Neves reacts and gets agitatated, snapping: ‘No, Kate!’

The chapter ends with more emotion: “There were so many unanswered questions going round and round my brain; so many days when all I wanted to do was pull the duvet over my head and for it all to go away”.

by **Tony Bennett** 12.05.11 23:27

SUMMARY AND CRITIQUE

Chapter 13 ‘ The Tide Turns’

p. 189

On 5 July the McCanns discuss with Inspector Luis Neves their outrage with the ‘Pact of Silence’ article and the leaks of their friends’ mobile ’phone nos. to the police.

p. 190

Dr Kate agonises over the press involvement: “No longer was it about our lovely missing daughter; it was becoming the Kate and Gerry show”.

p. 191

We hear how the McCanns suddenly learnt about all the world’s ‘missing, exploited and trafficked children’ and started campaigning: they felt “…a moral obligation to try to do something to make Europe a safer place for all children”

p. 192

Gerry spent almost an hour on the ’phone to important people in Washington and afterwards Dr Kate says Gerry was ‘almost radiant’ (but obviously not quite) at the prospect of a trip to Washington.

p. 193

The attempt by a Dutch man to extort money, his arrest and prosecution is covered in some detail.

pp. 193-4

The McCanns get an invitation to lunch from Sir Clement Freud, who has a house in Praia da Lyz. The McCanns accept and all go along with Trish and Sandy Cameron and Justine McGuiness. They all go along at mid-day. Clement Freud opened the meeting by asking Dr Kate: “Can I interest you in a strawberry vodka?” Dr Kate says: “Er, OK then, That would be nice” She enthuses about the lunch: “Lunch was bloody marvellous: watercress and egg salad followed by a chicken and mushroom risotto - the best risotto we’ve ever tasted before or since. Clement cheered us up with his lugubrious wit…” They later kept in touch by e-mail.

p. 195

Dinner at Ricardo Paiva’s house: “…it was a good evening, though I found it hard to allow myself to really relax and enjoy it. Ricardo made us a great martini and his wife had prepared a fantastic meal”.

The McCanns move to the villa on 2 July.

p. 196

Dr Kate writes of the ‘confrontation’ between Robert Murat and Fiona, Rachael and Russell on 11 July at Portimao Police Station as to whether he was outside the Ocean Club the night Madeleine was reported missing. Dr Kate says they were sitting so close their knees were practically touching each other; Murat eyeballed each of them intently as they were speaking.

pp. 196-7

Gerry gets invited by the Rupert Murdoch-owned Sun newspaper to a ‘Bravery Awards’ police ceremony in London. He is applauded there. Before that, he spends the afternoon having a tour of CEOP HQ.

On July 15 and 16 Danie Krugel is in town with his ‘matter orientation system’ which he claims is ‘80% successful’. They are not sure about him but want to make sure ‘no stone is left unturned’. Dr Kate says she is “…so destroyed, so consumed by our pain and fear…we felt our role as [Sean and Amelie’s] parents had been compromised’.

pp. 198-9

Dr Kate: “Maternal guilt often weighed heavily on my shoulders…I was so engulfed by Madeleine that I worried I might not have enough love left over for Sean and Amelie. Something else to beat myself up about”.

Wednesday 18 July marked ‘a turning point’. Speaking of the PJ investigation, she writes: “…their lack of progress whipped up a storm of fury in me that was completely out of character. It seems to me now as if for several months I was possessed by some demonic alien that infiltrated my thoughts and filled me with anger and hatred. I needed a face on which to pin all this rage, someone to blame. And although, as I now know, the PJ had no case against Murat, they handed him to me on a plate. Since they had insinuated throughout that he might be the person responsible for the unimaginable fear and pain suffered by our little girl, is it any wonder I felt as I did?”

Later in the meeting the PJ said that Danie Krugel’s machine had come up with a ‘static signal’ that suggested that Madeleine might be dead and buried on the beach, close to the Rocha Negra cliff. This ‘plunged me into despair’. “There would be endless tears, out-of-control hysteria and feverish sessions of prayer. And there would be several visits to ‘my rocks’ - a quiet part of the beach away from the promenade...here I would simply sob to a friend on the ’phone for hours on end…I still go back there on my visits to Praia da Luz to be on my own”.

p. 200

On 20 July the PJ asked the National Policing Improvements Agency for ‘advisory assistance’. A Serious Organised Crime Officer, Jose de Freitas, who was bilingual, came over to Portugal to help with the enquiry. “We found out later (much later) that the UK team had been instructed by the PJ to proceed on the basis that Madeleine had been killed and her body dumped”.

p. 201

Dr Kate: “At this stage, I was also still giving some credence to the information [sic] we were receiving from psychics, some of whom were suggesting that we should scour nearby territory again”.

On 22 July the Sunday Express ran the headline: ‘MADDY’S PARENTS TO FACE INQUIRY’. It was “incredibly hurtful…”

Dr Kate: “However unwittingly, we’d given this predator an opportunity”.

p. 202

“We had not been there for Madeleine. And, as I’ve said before and will say again, our guilt over that is a heavy cross we will bear for the rest of our lives…the abductor must have been smiling smugly to himself and thinking: ‘Keep blaming the parents, just leave me out of it, hidden and anonymous, to carry on doing what I do - stealing children”.

by ROSA 12.05.11 23:59

i hope Maddie reads it!
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by **PeterMac** 13.05.11 8:02

Do you really want an 8 year old to read her own mother's description of her ******* , and to realise it has been published across the entire world ?
I wish some things coud be un-read.

by ufercoffy 13.05.11 8:09

I suppose it's good that Kate, at least, described them as "perfect" and not defected like her eye, which was a good marketing ploy.

Oh wait! The "perfect genitals" is also a good marketing ploy too cos it's in a book designed to make money roll

by **Tony Bennett** 13.05.11 8:54

SUMMARY AND CRITIQUE

Chapter 14 ‘ Warning Sirens’

p. 203

Gerry McCann flies to Washington to meet the Attorney-General, CEO of the National Centre for Missing and Exploited Children, and has a TV interview on the ‘America’s Most Wanted’ show.

Dr Kate ’phoned Ricardo Paiva to get a couple of letters translated but he was ‘strange’, ‘not his usual self’; “I distinctly remember him saying: ‘Our investigation will be changing direction’.”

Dr Kate now refers to Krugel’s machine as ‘an unknown and untested magic machine’.

p. 204

A University Professor in Belfast described Krugel’s machine as ‘pseudo-science-fiction’.

“At bedtime one evening while Gerry was in the States, Amelie said to me in a small voice: ‘Daddy at work. Mummy not going to work. Mummy not going anywhere. Mummy stay here”.

Thursday 26 July, Gerry flies back from Washington. Sunday 29 July, Trish and Sandy Cameron return home to Scotland.

pp. 205-6

“On Monday we had what would turn out to be our last regular meeting with [Inspectors] Luis Neves ands Guilhermino Encarnacao”.

2 August: They were planning the drive to Huelva with Jon Corner. But: “As I was dropping Sean and Amelie off at the Toddler Club, I had a ’phone call from Gerry. The police wanted to come over at 10am. Something to do with forensics…”

“We’d never lied about anything - not to the police, not to the media, not to anyone else. But now we found ourselves in one of those tricky situations where we just didn’t seemto have a choice. As it happened, Gerry had a mild stomach upset which we used as an excuse to postpone the trip…can you imagine what would have happened if we’d announced to the journalists heading for Huelva that the police were coming to do some forensic work in our villa?”

The police showed up late, at 5pm, the following day. “Left with only the clothes we were wearing, we were all asked to leave the villa”.

“When we were allowed back, we found four detectives at the house…I was confused…and devastated: as well as all of our clothes, they had taken my Bible, Cuddle Cat and my diaries”.

p. 207

“The Bible had been lent to me by Bridget’s husband Paddy a week after Madeleine’s abduction. My journals were private and full of personal thoughts and messages to Madeleine. I felt violated”.

“When you are innocent, it doesn’t occur to you that you could be considered in any other light”.

The Huelva trip is described in just four lines.

“The police returned our belongings to us later that day, thrown into big black bin bags, creased as hell…”

They plan for the 100^th day since Madeleine was reported missing: 11 August. “We were preparing to launch a ‘Don’t You Forget About Me’ channel on YouTube. We also had quite a few media interviews lined up”.

p. 208

Saturday 4 August: Murat’s mother’s house is surrounded by police cars, journalists and cameras.

Monday 6 August: Gerry was asked to meet the police in a café in Portimao, but the police kept the car and took Gerry home in the car. It was the day Eddie and Keela were set loose to examine 10 cars. At lunchtime the McCanns were besieged by hostile journalists. That morning’s Portuguese press ‘suggested that Gerry was somehow involved in Madeleine’s disappearance. Sniffer dogs had discovered traces of Madeleine’s blood in apartment 5A, it was claimed. It was insinuated that she had died there and her body had been dumped in the sea”.

p. 209

The next day there was another media frenzy: “We left as planned for the Belavista Hotel in Luz, where I was scheduled to be interviewed on BBC Radio 4’s ‘Woman’s Hour’ via satellite radio.

p. 210

The BBC’s Steve Kingstone says: “Do you know what they’re saying? They’re saying that you killed Madeleine”. They agree to do an interview with the BBC’s Richard Bilton. Gerry, says Dr Kate “…kept his fury in check”.

Wednesday 8 August: Interview at the Tivoli Hotel for the programme: ‘Heaven and Earth’. “We teetered on the edge of a new precipice…”

Dr Kate questions her faith and suggests that perhaps religion was ‘invented merely to maintain order in society, promoting compassion and justice and provide solace…’ (the media have described them both as ‘devout Catholics’).

p. 211

Alex Woolfall ’phones to tell the McCanns that they can’t use the Toddler Club any more because other parents have complained about the ‘media scrum’ there every morning: “I was so upset. The injustice of it all was starting to get to me. Poor Amelie and Sean. They were the ones who would suffer. We’d tried so hard to provide them with stability, to make sure they had other children to play with and lots of activity, and now even this was to be taken away from them. My immediate reaction was to angrily blame these guests for their selfishness”.

Later she says: “No, it was the media who were at fault”. Later still, Sean and Amelie were able to return to the club.

Inspector Joao Carlos returned the McCanns’ car at lunchtime, minus a piece from the boot. Instead of meeting for an informal chat at the British Consulate, as they normally did, this time the McCanns were summoned to meet at Portimao Police Station. The children were dropped off with Haynes and Susan Hubbard.

p. 212

Today Luis Neves and Guilhermino Encarnacao “looked serious and cold”. They were no longer optimistic that Madeleine was alive. Dr Kate: “Almost instantaneously I could feel my breathing pattern altering and that familiar constriction in my throat. Gerry asked if any evidence had come to light to suggest that Madeleine was dead but they wouldn’t reply…Gerry was then asked to leave the room. Now the sirens in my head were deafening…I was on my own and afraid”.

Dr Kate was then asked to state exactly what happened on the evening of 3 May. She did so, but “…this time they responded by just staring at me and shaking their heads. I was reeling with confusion, disbelief and panic. What the hell was going on?”

p. 213

“Neves stated bluntly that they didn’t believe my version of events. It ‘didn’t fit’ with what they knew. What did they know? “.

“They proposed that when I’d put Madeleine to bed that night, it wasn’t actually the last time I’d seen here. But it was. It was!…I was in no doubt no that they were trying to make me say I killed Madeleine or knew what had happened to her…This was their theory and they wanted to shoehorn me into it, end of story”.

p. 214

Then Gerry was interviewed, again on his own: “Through his tears he pleaded with the two men: ‘Do you have evidence that Madeleine is dead? We’re our parents, you have to tell us’. ‘It’s coming’, Neves told him. ‘It’s coming’.”

Dr Kate was praying. “I was beginning to come unstuck”.

Dr Kate: “Before long I was ordered back into the room to join Gerry for round three”.

Luis Neves asked Dr Kate why she wasn’t looking at him straight in the eye: “There was no reason, other than I was incapable of looking at anyone properly: my own eyes were so swollen and sore that I was struggling to keep them from closing completely”.

p. 215

The McCanns collected Sean and Amelie from the Hubbards. “Susan suggested I wnt and had a bath as I was still pretty shaky. |In her bathroom I leaned over the washbasin and peered into the mirror. My eyes were narrow slits in fat, purple lids. My blotchy face seemed to be ageing by the day…What’s going to become of us all?”

Gerry made several calls asking for help and advice, including to the Director of the counselling service from Skipton, Alan Pike.

The nest day and the day after “we had a host of interviews scheduled to mark the hundredth day since Madeleine was taken from us. My immediate instinct was to cancel them all…But this would have broken one of our rules: keep your focus and don’t let others push you off track. We were doing interviews for Madeleine”.

p. 216

“It was a terrible day: both the atmosphere and the line of questioning followed by the press were intensely antagonistic…We wanted to talk about one hundred days without Madeleine, and the launch of ‘Don’t You Forget About Me’ on YouTube; they wanted to talk about blood and dogs”.

Dr Kate: “We felt like two lone figures with catapults fighting an army”.

“What made it worse was our distress that all the time and effort we’d put into publicising the hundred-day landmark and the plight of other missing children was being trampled underfoot. It was exasperating…the disrespect and injustice we felt on Madeleine’s behalf were very hard to stomach”.

“Alan Pike…flew out [to us] from the U.K. on a mercy mission. We were very grateful for the opportunity to reconnect with him face to face for a dose of his calm, considered advice. It all helped to strengthen our armour”.

by **Tony Bennett** 13.05.11 11:13

SUMMARY AND CRITIQUE

Chapter 15 ‘ One Hundred Days’

p. 217

Saturday 11 August. There was a ‘One Hundred Days of Hope’ service for Madeleine and ‘missing children everywhere’ in the church.

“Haynes led the service. He is such a strong man, his trust in God unwavering”.

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“I wrote in my diary: ‘I have no doubt the local Portuguese community are behind us. We were kissed to death again!’”

Olegario de Sousa had given a statement to the BBC saying there was new evidence that Madeleine was dead but that the family and friends ‘were not suspects’. Dr Kate: “The chaotic and upsetting events and rumours of recent days and the complete lack of information were compounding our already unbearable agony”.

Ricardo Pavia then came round to their house and explained that two springer spaniels had been in Praia da Luz, a bloodhound who had found traces of blood in the apartment, and a ‘cadaver’ dog who had indicated that ‘somebody had died there’.

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“I trusted Ricardo back then but I struggled to understand how, never mind why, somebody could have killed Madeleine and removed her body within such a short time frame…this ‘evidence of death’ seemed tenuous in the extreme. The police appeared to be telling us, on the say-so of a dog, that someone had definitely died in Apartment 5A”.

“Supposing she had been taken out of the apartment within minutes. Did they really believe that a dog could smell the ‘odour of death’ three months later from a body that had been removed so swiftly? They were adding two and two together and coming up with ten”.

“The merest suggestion from Ricardo that it was even possible she had been killed in that flat was like knife being twisted into my chest. My eyes, so tired of tears, succumbed to them yet again”.

Dr Kate wrote in her diary that day: “So Madeleine’s dead?…Psychopath? Burglary gone wrong? I need her body before I can believe this. I just can’t accept this”.

That evening they watched the Premiership football highlights. Bill Kenwright, the Chairman of Everton Football Club, had made the players wear Madeleine T-shirts and wristbands, and said that “The pressure on football clubs and managers at the start of the new football campaign was nothing compared to the pressure Gerry and Kate are under”. (FOOTNOTE: Bill Kenwright, an impresario, is a great friend of Michael Barrymore. When Barrymore was arrested the second time on suspicion of murder in June 2007, he was staying at Bill Kenwright’s north London home).

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“The following three weeks felt like an eternity. It was like being on some kind of endurance course run by sadists. The newspapers…churned out endless damning pieces that were at best speculative and mostly complete fabrications…While selling papers and making money, these stories very effectively distorted the opinions of the readership…Evidently it didn’t matter to the newspaper editors whether there was any truth in these tales or not…”.

p. 222

Diary entry 17 August: “Finding it hard to talk to anyone at then moment as I’m full of so many negative emotions - anger, bitterness, frustration, desperation…”

Gerry began talking about going home to Rothley.

Sean and Amelie thought that Madeleine must be at their home in Rothley: “Gerry rang the child psychologist David Trickey for advice. It broke my heart to hear Gerry explaining gently to the children afterwards that Madeleine wasn’t there. Sean looked quite confused, and perhaps a bit scared…”

“In mid-July I had slowly started to come round to Gerry’s way of thinking - we had to return some time..”

p. 223

19 August diary entry: “Madeleine, sweetheart, it’s not getting any easier at this end. I just have to hope that whoever is with you loves you too and is treating you kindly and fairly

20 August dairy entry: “There’s so much shit that’s been written, much of it outrageous”.

Dr Kate: “By this time, we felt as if we had been completely cut adrift”.

On 20 August Gerry contacted a human rights lawyer, Carlos Pinto de Abreu, “who’d been recommended to us”. The McCanns went to see him the very next day. There they met with Carlos, his wife who acted as a translator, and three colleagues.

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In her diary for that day, Dr Kate wrote: “A bit upset on the way back…I had ‘flashes’ of Madeleine in my head being hurt, abused and screaming for us - but we weren’t there. So awful”.

23 August, an interview with ‘Telecinco’, a Spanish TV news programme. The McCanns had told them in advance that they couldn’t discuss the investigation at all because of the judicial secrecy rules. The interview took place in Justine McGuiness’s flat.

Dr Kate: “It was stifling in the small flat. It was a hot August day, hotter still under the TV arc lights, and we were pretty uncomfortable before we even started. We readied ourselves for the interviewer’s first question. It was about the investigation. And the second question? About the investigation. As was the third. Blood and dogs were mentioned again. It was as if the conversation we’d had [before the interview] had never taken place. After five or so of these unanswerable prompts, Gerry, who was suffering badly from the heat, removed his mike, visibly exasperated and upset…I carried on, attempting patiently and politely to explain why my husband had reacted as he had”.

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Dr Kate: “The papers gleefully reproduced stills of Madeleine’s distressed father under headlined like: ‘GERRY CRACKS’ and ‘GERRY STORMS OFF’.”

Gerry flew to Scotland to appear at the Edinburgh TV Festibal. This “had been arranged back in early June”, when it was agreed that “Highly respected ‘Newsnight’ presenter Kirsty Wark” would carry out the interview.

On Friday 24 August, a Portuguese newspaper Tal e Qual published an article: ‘PJ BELIEVE PARENTS KILLERD MADDIE’. Dr Kate: “I think this was probably the last straw for Gerry, and he completely lost it. I was equally gobsmacked. Initially my fury was directed not at the police but at the paper…”. It was “ridiculous, disgusting nonsense”.

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The McCanns ’phoned Bob Small of Leicestershire Police. Dr Kate: “…he was perplexed at the apparent fixation of the PJ on the idea that Madeleine had died in the apartment. He told Gerry he thought they’d get a shock when the forensic results came back”.

Dr Kate: “The next day, Gerry rang Ken Jones, Head of the Association of Chief Police Officers. He, too, was beginning to despair of the investigation and the way it was being handled…Carlos Pinto de Abreu advised us to sue Tal e Qual. We did begin proceedings, but shortly afterwards, the paper went bust…”

p. 227

Dr Kate says that ‘a faction’ within the PJ had leaked the story to Tal e Qual “…in order to make everyone else believe it, to ‘solve’ a case they wer eudner immense pressure to conclude. What better way was there to achieve that than to harness the power of the media? So much for the law of judicial secrecy”.

Dr Kate says there were some Portuguese police officers who ‘worked very hard to get to the truth’ but “their efforts…were being undermined by these disgraceful actions”.

On Monday 27 August the McCanns got a call from one of the Board members of the Find Madeleine Fund trust, Esther McVey, a Conservative parliamentary candidate. She was, said Dr Kate “scared by our current situation” and urged the McCanns to come home. The same day, the McCanns learned that they had to leave their villa by 11 September. The McCanns say that they then made plans to depart from Portugal on Monday 10 September.

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Dr Kate: “I knew, though, that O would be returning to Luz when I could, to reconnect with the last place I had seen Madeleine and to remind the authorities that I was not going to allow my daughter’s disappearance to be forgotten. I could just imagine the police and the government rubbing their hands with glee at seeing the back of us at last and wrapping up the case with unseemly haste”.

The McCanns had been given many toys by well-wishers and they gave away many of these to local orphanages.

Dr Kate recalls Madeleine’s favourite DVD: ‘Barbie: The Princess and the Pauper’. Madeleine would pretend to be Erika and Dr Kate would pretend to be Anneliese.

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August 30: this would have been Madeleine’s first day back at school. “I had pictured her in class, having fun and making lots of new mates…I’d see her standing there on her new uniform, smiling at me. I cried, I prayed and I held my husband and children tightly. We could make things right for her. If only we could get her back we could work through anything and everything she’d endured. We would make sure that her life was as full and happy as it should always have been”.

The McCanns get a call from Clement Freud. He teases them: “Is it true, Gerry? That you’re close to a breakdown and needing medication”.

He explains. “I have a lot of empathy with the Express. You see, we both suffer form poor circulation”.

Dr Kate: “Clement kept us smiling”.

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Dr Kate: “On the night of 1 September I dreamed about Madeleine for the first time on four months…it was such a dreadful experience…Although I was dreaming, I could feel her. It was as if parts of my body that had been hibernating for months suddenly began to stir. I could sense the cold, dark days lifting as I luxuriated in warmth and light. And Madeleine was holding me, her little arms wrapped tightly round me, and it felt so good, I could smell her, I could feel her with every one of my senses as I soaked up this heavenly moment. My Madeleine. I wanted to stay like this for ever. And then I woke up. Ice began to course through my body, driving out every endorphin and remnant of warmth. I didn’t understand. What was happening? How could this be? I could still feel her! A heavy boot connected with my stomach and the ache in my chest was worse than I’d known it. I was struggling for breath, almost as if I were being strangled. Please God, don’t let her go! Stay with me, Madeleine. Please stay with me. Don’t go - stay with Mummy. Please, sweetheart, hold on. I love you so much. I started to cry. The crying built into seismic sobs. An unearthly sound, like the howl of a wounded animal, was coming out of my mouth. The crushing pain in my chest intensified to the point where I thought I was going to die. I’d been with her. And then she was gone. Again”.

by mama 13.05.11 11:44

i joined this forum as a mother whose daughter aged 8 was sexually molested. the offensive writing on pg119? defies belief.to write this in a book for the whole world to read is truly bizarre.